Reported June 14th, 2005

In May of last year, I was at an all time low and wondered if I would get over my sister's sudden death. It had been 8 months since her passing and still I felt depressed and thought of nothing good ever to come in my life again. I was feeling sorry for myself and wondered why I was having feelings of such sorrow, anger, regret, doubt and frustration when I was a Christian. I should have been able to get up and go on knowing that I will see Kyndall in Heaven one day. But I didn't get up and go on. I just wanted to lay down and die myself.
Towards the end of that month, I came across a web site about a Church in my area. Upon further reading, I saw that the pastor's husband had recently died. I thought to myself, "I wonder if she feels like me even though she is a pastor." I clicked on the page that contained 2 of the books she had written. One of them was called Turning Points. The description read:

Turning Points:   

A turning point is a special moment in which we are faced with tragedy, success, a choice, our own past, or change.  In such moments we have the opportunity to turn to God for healing, growth, and renewal.  We must recognize that also within these moments is the danger of turning to bitterness, self-absorption, and denial.   

Turning Points addresses Christians who do not know or haven't admitted that they need recovery, as well as those who are struggling with difficult issues in their lives.  Hamilton challenges readers to consider their own life issues, feelings, and needs and to face the reality of various situations, such as loss, grief, addiction, codependence, abuse, and forgiveness.  While humans are imperfect, God's grace is sufficient to provide the healing and the recovery that we all need.
(click here to order one for yourself!)

It sounded just like the kind of book I needed to read. I figured, what the heck, and I ordered it. Well, let me tell you, God walked me through that book and did grant me my turning point. After reading the book, I came to realize that my feelings were normal. I was normal and my world could go on. I did have a future and I should make the best of it with God holding my hand and leading the way. I decided to take charge, forgive myself, my sister and God. I immediately started promoting Kyndall's site. I immediately felt better. 

Here it is, another year later. Even though I have moved on and am now enjoying life again, of course I still miss my sister. I will, for the rest of my life, remind people what drugs did to my sister and to my family. It is my crusade led by God. 
Last month (May, 2005) I read an article in the Asbury Park press under a section called Turning Point. At the bottom of the article, the writer asks if you have a turning point in your life that you would like to share with readers, email it to him. I emailed him Kyndall's story and about the turning point in my life with creating the web site to not only remember her by, but to help others too. I am pleased to say it was published Sunday, June 12th, 2005. The web site traffic that day was excellent. In Kyndall's death, maybe at least one can be saved. Pass this site along!